Well, after I posted the last installment about my struggle with being the age that I am chronologically, (and I do struggle - but like everything else that troubles me I try to infuse it with some humor....like when I needed 10 stitches in the top of my head and I asked them to just pull it up tight so I could avoid a facelift later)....I was driving home from rehearsal.  And having had it up to here (cue common mom gesture) with the songs from the show for the time being, I turned on the radio.  And there was a song playing by the Christian band, REVIVE that sort of grabbed me.  In fact, it was an eloquent paraphrase of what I was trying to convey in my post.  And here are the lyrics -

Teach me to number my days

And count every moment before it slips away
Taking all the colors before they fade to gray
I don’t want to miss even just a second more of this


It happens in a blink
It happens in a flash
It happens in the time it takes to look back
I try to hold on tight, but there’s no stopping time
What is it I’ve done with my life
It happens in a blink


When it’s all said and done
No one remembers how far we have run
The only thing that matters is how we have loved
I don’t want to miss even just a second more of this


Slow down, slow down
Before today becomes our yesterday
Slow down, slow down
Before you turn around and it’s too late


It happens in a blink
it happens in a flash
it happens in the time it takes to look back
I try to hold on tight but there’s no stopping time
What is it I’ve done with my life
It happens in a blink

And probably even more helpful than reading them, here is the link to listen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvuxFdM3S58

The song asks - what is it I've done with my life?

Hopefully I have
 made people feel loved and appreciated....
 given some students a measure of self-worth....
 brought laughter to someone who needed it....
 contributed something somewhere, to make the world a better place.....
 encouraged a downtrodden heart....
 shined a ray of light to a darkened corner.....
 made a difference.